I WILL

Please click this link and listen to this song…

This is the song “I Will” from “At The End Of A Perfect Day”, by Chris de Burgh.

There are so many things happening and we have to work hard on it. Sometimes I feel so lonely, so desperate and so helpless. But the faith in my mind has led me to go so far! How wonderful our lives have been!

I love this beautiful planet. I love you all, my friends. Most time I have been silent but I know we are all the kids of God working so hard to find the right path for all.

Life is too short to hesitate, to worry, and to be afraid! When you are feeling lost in the snow of a cold winter, please think of me, think of all your friends who have been fighting for the same, think of those who had sacrificed their lives for a better world… I’ve never left you. My friend. Please remember that I am always here with you.

If one day, you have heard of any bad news from me. Don’t be afraid and don’t be discouraged. This is the life and lessons we all have to go through. The end is always a fresh start. Lift your heart and think of me… And please remember that I have never lost my faith in God.

God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. [1 John4:16]

The Pain of Growth

This sunday, I was planning to get up early and go to church in the morning. But I woke up at 8am with a heavy headache. It was so much that I couldn’t get up right away; so I kept myself in the bed. I fell into asleep again and too many things came into my dream.

So… eventually I woke up with tears in my dream, staring at the ceiling. The headache didn’t go away until the late afternoon. I dreamed again. All just were so real in the dream. The pain is still hanging here with my mind. Then I know I don’t have to go to the church to talk to you because you’ve visited me this morning.

The headache is still here. I know it is the pain of growth. You’ve told me. This is the pain of growth we have to go through.

In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead. [James 2:17]

You’ve been watching me for a long time and taught me a lot. I’ve been to so many eye openers and learned so much. Sometimes I felt too much to learn, too weak to be strong, and too overwhelmed to overcome. But here I am, still alive and dreaming. Life is amazing. Thanks for bringing all those dreams to heal the pains.

Love is the only way to cover our sins, isn’t it? There are so many things to do and I am quite confused which one to follow at first. It takes some time to figure that out. I need this solitude. It’s so messy here.

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. [1 Peter 4:8]

The Snows of New York

Yes we will! Let’s do our best!!! When you feeling lost, lift your heart and think of me…

http://youtu.be/oqj9qwrytOE

The Snows Of New York

I can see you now by the light of the dawn,
And the sun is rising slow,
We have talked all night, and I can't talk anymore,
But I must stay and you must go;

You have always been such a good friend to me,
Through the thunder and the rain,
And when you're feeling lost in the snows of New York,
Lift your heart and think of me;

There are those who fail, there are those who fall,
There are those who will never win,
Then there are those who fight for the things they believe,
And these are men like you and me;

In my dream we walked, you and I to the shore,
Leaving footprints by the sea,
And when there was just one set of prints in the sand,
That was when you carried me;

You have always been such a good friend to me,
Through the thunder and the rain,
And when you're feeling lost in the snows of New York,
Lift your heart and think of me;

When you're feeling lost in the snows of New York,
Lift your heart and think of me,
Lift your heart and think of me.

June for changes

It’s hard to tell what I am feeling now. As the time goes by, I have dreamed a lot interesting things. My mind is full of fresh ideas, questions and curiosity. The dreams are all good and lovely. I hadn’t dreamed like today for quite a while.

A girlfriend flied to Edmonton and spent her night with me on Jun 1st. We had a great time at Common Wealth Stadium of Edmonton. Just about 6 feet away from the stage, with all the lovely madness and excitement. We were singing “One” all together; we were singing “With Or Without You” all together; we were showing our cell phone lights all together in the dark night… What a good memory! I could hold my tears when Bono started to talk about the One Project. Yes I can’t say that I don’t care. It is a project for everyone, for all of us, isn’t it?

Freedom, human rights, live, love, war, peace, … there are so many things hanging out there. My mind has been filled with them all. It’s hard to focus on my everyday life. I have been walking alone searching for the answers, have I? I can’t help questioning myself, again and again.

Let’s look back to 20 years ago. What was happening there? Where was I, and what was I thinking of? I can hardly remember exactly but I do feel something inside wanting to speak, to explore and to express to its full.

Yes the change has coming to us. We just haven’t realized that yet. It’s hard to accept it even it is just standing in front of you, right? Sometimes it is. So do I see the changes. Everyone is talking about changes now but we are just talking, and we’ve been talking about that for over 20 years.

Time flies! Lots passed away… The stars still shine in the sky and the sun still warms our world.

I talked to the God this morning. The sunshine was so gentle and soft. He said it’s all right. You will figure it out. Just take your time, or not. It will happen eventually. Let’s embrace the change with love and forgiveness. Yes I will. Thanks be to God.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your path straight.”

TMI 2011

“Develop a passion for learning. If you do, you will never cease to grow.” – Anthony J. D’Angelo

2011 is a special year, for everyone. You may have felt that for quite a while.

Just too much information…. TMI at least for me! I wish I could have 48 hours per day! Time runs too fast! I do really feel regreted for the wasted time and try to catch up as much as I could.

Make the change as your choice, Michelle.

Here Without You

A music video has touched me tonight… The song is Here Without You, by Three Doors Down.

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“But all the miles that separate
“Disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face

“I’m here without you baby
“But you’re still on my lonely mind
“I think about you baby
“And I dream about you all the time

“I’m here without you baby
“But you’re still with me in my dreams
“And tonight it’s only you and me, yeah

“The miles just keep rollin’
“As the people leave their way to say hello
“I’ve heard this life is overrated
“But I hope that it gets better as we go….”

“Tough times never last, but tough people do.” I try to be as tough as I could. I believe that, one day the God will bring you to me.

“I will not forget you. I have inscribed you on the palms of my hands.”   [Isaiah 49:15-16]

With or without you…

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side.
I wait for you…. and I wait without you…

with or without you…

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side.
I wait for you.
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you… With or without you.

Through the storm, we reach the shore
You gave it all but I want more
And I’m waiting for you

With or without you…. With or without you.
I can’t live…. with or without you.

And you give yourself away

My hands are tied, my body bruised
Shes got me with nothing to win
And nothing left to lose.

And you give yourself away

With or without you…. With or without you
I can’t live…. With or without you…..

April First

April 1st is a special day for some people, not for fun but just the old memories.

He chose to leave us on April 1st… It was a depressing story but life keeps moving on.  He picked this day specifically so when the April first comes, it reminds people about him and his reason always.

Listening some old songs, I feel so tired and so sorry… I wish I could be a strong and capable person so that I could do more things for other people. However, I am just a human. I have my issues, I have lots problems and I have the complex hidden.

This dreamer still dreams and follows her dreams.

I just can’t give it up as you did. Sorry, I can’t. Life is short and all of us will head to the same end. It doesn’t matter earlier or later, but I can’t give it up no matter what happens. 2011, it will be the 36th year in my life. How many things I did? I can’t remember. I never look back. The present and the future, are my concern only.

Someone asked me why I am active in the political party today. A smile was the only answer I gave to him. I don’t want to explain it just because I don’t want to remember some past painful memories. It would never have been mentioned and there’s a reason for me to be here and there. The average life of Canadians is about 75 years old… If so, half of my life has gone and I can’t afford more waste of time.

Time for more changes coming. I am very sure the changes are good for all of us. Do your best. Never give up, please.

It’s a long run

It’s never easy to work for your dreams; but the happiness follows those who work hard trying to make their dreams come true.

Life sometimes is tough, but it is not as hard as we imagined. It is up to our attitude and approches. Trust yourself. You can do much better than you think.

The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today.

Let us run with perseverance the race that is set before us. [Hebrews 12:1]

ONE

This is the song I want you to play for my funeral, one day … Sisters, and brothers, we get to carry each other. Please remember that you are always loved…

ONE

(— By U2)

Is it getting better

Or do you feel the same

Will it make it easier on you now

You got someone to blame

You say… One love  One life

When it’s one need In the night

One love We get to share it

Leaves you darling if you

Don’t care for it

Did I disappoint you

Or leave a bad taste in your mouth

You act like you never had love

And you want me to go without

Well Is it… Too late Tonight

To drag the past down into the light

We’re one, but we’re not the same

We get to Carry each other … Carry each other…

One life …

Have you come here for forgiveness

Have you come to raise the dead

Have you come here to play Jesus

To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much

More than a lot

You gave me nothing

Now it’s all I got

We’re one

But we’re not the same

Well we Hurt each other

Then we do it again

You say

Love is a temple Love a higher law

Love is a temple Love the higher law

You ask me to enter

But then you make me crawl

And I can’t be holding on

To what you got

When all you got is hurt

One love One blood

One life You got to do what you should

One life With each other

Sisters Brothers

One life But we’re not the same

We get to Carry each other… Carry each other…

One…life…