November 2009

Sorry I haven’t updated my blog as regularly as before…. because of a hidden emotional depression. — I don’t want to discuss it with anyone and have switched writings back to my diary book (it is a good way to maintain balanced). In September, I spent lots time at night hanging out with some friends and got drunk with beer. It was way too much but it gave me some time to think of myself, my past and my future. However I am back to normal and getting much busier in things for personal growth.

For example, I had never thought of that… I am living in a lovely small town, Wainwright. The sunlight came through a window and woke me up this morning. It is a beautiful morning of the fall.

I made some nice coffee by a press coffee maker (it was from Mike and I will get a new one to replace it by this Xmas) with some grilled cheese toasts. I am a fan of black coffee but today I added lots sugar and milk into my coffee. I need some sweetness and creamy silky tastes in life, sometimes. I am not a tough one, honestly. I am too tired to pretend to be tough; so I need sugar and yes more sugar, please.

The past hurts. It was I myself let it hurt me. No one can hurt us unless we let it be. It is true that I tried to escape from the facts that were hurting me continuously. However, things are getting better and better and I’ve learned to handle it much better than before. It is a big progress, isn’t it?

We all have to handle some hard times in realities. It is the test from God. There is no coincidence. The odds happen among the possibilities. We pick the path and we shall take full responsibilities to confront the outcome in the future. It is all about self management.

I had done some courses to distract my mind away from the depression. Now I can take more challenges in 2010 and next few years. I’ve committed to myself to live a better life with healthy life style, strong faith in God, love and forgiveness, and a prosperous career in accounting. It is a long-term commitment and YES I can do very well for this project.

Nothing of value in life comes without commitment, planning and self-discipline. Just remember we are always loved.
— This is what I believe in. There is no doubt I can do it very well. I have every reason to be proud of myself and very confident.

I am glad that I’ve never lost my faith in you, God, no matter how down it was. Thanks for talking to me all the time, and bring me so many great friends and opportunities.

Bacon Chicken Wrap!

Have to go for yoga now… will come back and complete my writing lol

Fresh Start

It is the first Monday of October. Everything progressed much slower than usual. However, it is good to be patient always.

It rained in the weekend so I could not get my yard job done. I was sitting home for two days, listening to the song Nessun Dorma sang by Pavarotti all the time. The old memories came back and stayed for a while. It was beautiful to enjoy a quiet weekend.

I am getting my things organized slowly and feeling good as the week starts. Isn’t that lovely? Every day we have to learn something, not just about something new, but also something about ourselves. The best thing in our life is that we always can have a fresh start at the next moment.

Let’s take a break and start it over again.

Nessun Dorma

ITALIAN;
Nessun dorma! Nessun dorma!
Tu pure, o, Principessa,
nella tua fredda stanza,
guardi le stelle
che tremano d’amore
e di speranza.

Ma il mio mistero e chiuso in me,
il nome mio nessun saprá!
No, no, sulla tua bocca lo diró
quando la luce splenderá!

Ed il mio bacio sciogliera il silenzio
che ti fa mia!

(Il nome suo nessun saprá!…
e noi dovrem, ahimé, morir!)

Dilegua, o notte!
Tramontate, stelle!
Tramontate, stelle!
All’alba vinceró!
vinceró, vinceró!

ENGLISH
No-one sleeps….no-one sleeps,
Even you, O Princess,
in your cold room,
Watch the stars
which tremble with love
and hope!

But my secret is locked within me,
no-one shall know my name!
No, no, I shall say it on your mouth
when the light breaks!

And my kiss will break the silence
that makes you mine!

(No-one shall know his name,
and we, alas, shall die!)

Vanish, o night!
Set, ye stars!
At dawn I shall win!

Anything Is Possible

The weather this morning is a bit windy, but Amy’s quotation brightens my day. Nothing is impossible but anything is possible! The word itself says “I’m possible!” — What a smart interpretation! I will keep this in mind and do my best in every moment.

“Nothing is Impossible, the word itself says, ‘I’m Possible’!” – Audrey Hepburn

Crab Shells lol

I made some crab shells today…. Main ingredients are crab meats, mushroom flour and cheese. Looks good and taste good too! ^_^ Pictures here! It is very easy. Only have to bake them in the oven for 20 minutes, 180 degrees lol:

Multiple Realities

“Realism is a corruption of reality. “- Wallace Stevens

“Everyone else has their own filters, not subconscious and conscious, cultural and individual.”

“Two mirrors side by side both at 45 degrees, as if in a corner, will reverse the reversal affect that you are in a normal mirror.”

I challenged myself a lot this month and I learned a lot. Life is amazing and I am moving forward for more great things. Hope you all are doing well. Best wishes!

THANKS…

Thanks the sun rise up again, and keep on lighting my dreams

Thanks the rain that granted by god ,it clean out the sadness and darkness from heart.

Thanks for your support, no matter how many setback i met now, i still have courage to living in it.

Thank you who always support me, let me know so many people love me.

Thanks for my eyes, even if they are smaller, but they let me see the sun rise up and down, flowers bloom and fall.

Thanks for the days that i felt sad, i know the happiness is not far from me.

Thanks for the night coming, whatever the failure i had today, i know the new day is waiting for me to prove myself.

Move Again… lol

I have to move again by the end of this month … lol

This summer is really busy. Time flies so fast! ^_^ I will be busy for quite a while still.

Hope the new place to live will make my little fishes happier lol hahaha…

Michelle

My Summer Vacation

Came back to Wainwright in an early sunday morning… Everything was beautiful with fresh smells of roses and grass.

Ontario and Manitoba are beautiful too… I took some pictures and put them on facebook. I really enjoyed my time of camping … Lake of Despair, Sunset Country

This is the picture we camped — look at the tent! ^_^

For more pictures please visit my facebook albums.